nuraziqa

moved!

2008-02-17T02:04:00.000-08:00

I've shifted.HEHE.
New link.

booyah

2008-02-14T22:41:00.000-08:00

My sister received the greatest news today. She's chosen to take a dip in poly(same intake as mine), Alhamdulillah. She wanted it so,so badly. Now the pressure is on me to land my butt in NP, so my sister can go to NP as well. How effing cool is it to be in the same school as your own sister?My father is already practising his "Hello principal, which daughter was the one who created havoc? The nurse or the artiste?".

He certainly has his way with words.And i don't know why i'm the artiste.Love you Bah.

close your eyes & blow the candles

2008-02-14T00:22:00.000-08:00

I can tell anything to her.I can be anything with her.I can go anywhere with her.Anytime.She'll be there.I'll be there.

Thank you for always putting up with my nonsense, lightnening up my day when i'm at the lowest and believing in everything i do.When the world seems gloomy and i have noone to turn to,i know i've got you and just the thought of that keeps me going. Thanks for the wonderful times in class and when we hang out. You are partly the reason why i've become the person i am today. People go around, fretting how their friends may be liars or hypocrites, talking dirt behind their backs but i'm lucky i have you- and i need not worry.You are honest & true.

To the one & only person who can irritate me like hell but still put a smile on my face at the same time, Happy Sexy Seventeenth Siti Anati!ily.

This Saturday babe,just like old times=).

PS: Yay,I'm going to see Precious today!

up & about

2008-02-12T23:18:00.000-08:00

"this is a rare moment, you're sad! you shouldn't be! you're aziqa! you're supposed to be jovial and full of euphoria! come come, must be happy okay!"

The minute i read that, i was all happy again. Chatting with Felina made me sooooo happy. I guess i miss my chargers too much.

I am so lucky for the family and dear friends i have. Ever since the unfateful interview, i have been very moody and down. But they never fail to reassure me and put that smile back onto my face. I'm so thankful to God that i have them. I''m not alone=).

._.

2008-02-11T22:40:00.000-08:00

Demoralised.

That is exactly how i feel. I should not have worked bloody hard on my statement intent yesterday(i didn't even have time to eat or drink) or print photos to fill my portfolio. Somehow i knew it was coming. My bestfriend was the only best thing that happened today. She dropped by at 10AM to help me out with my (stupid) portfolio and accompanied me to NP.The lecturer bloody told me what i got(or didn't) for my JAE when the results will only be released on the 19th!Now i'm just so upset that i've become cranky.SO PEOPLE STOP WALKING BEHIND ME AND STEAL GLANCES ON THE MONITOR COZ IT IRRITATES ME.

Aishah,besok your turn.I am confident you will make it.Insya Allah.

shortlisted

2008-02-10T19:17:00.000-08:00

I have an interview tomorrow at NP. My portfolio sucks(except for my statement of intent,hehe). So does my photos.Boo.

Wish me luck,pretty please with sugar on top=).

Roadtrip

2008-02-10T06:55:00.000-08:00

Self photography by Bil himself.

We left for KL at 4AM on Thursday morning and safely returned home 4AM this morning. The shopping and traffic sucked like hell(wtf,red light takes 99 secs while green only takes 54 secs) but everything else like meeting my second cousins was very fun. They have grown up alot. And they are super cute.And oh the food!Food is such a luxury there coz almost everything is halal, even their Subway!I didn't get the chance to try Subway though, but i got to eat at Food Republic=)).

Okay I am going to sleep now and wake up late aftenoon.I miss my bed terribly.

Tag Replies:
Tiq- Tu pasal la,tengok pon tak kenyang!
Raihan- I guess but they didn't state which did or did not have alcohol.Anyway,i didn't know either!
Ila- HEHE.Takple laa,your hard work will pay off for sure.My holiday break wasn't that great anyway=).
Husii- HAHAHA.Thanks. Yay i'm safely back at home now=).
Anati- HAHAH,you & your lameness.Eh bile nak keluar?
Luqqy- HAHAH,tahu tak ape!

cherry choc candy

2008-02-06T19:40:00.000-08:00

My (pregnant)sister dropped by my house yesterday with a huge white paper bag. I asked her what's inside. My student gave me for chinese new year.

It was a freaking huge box of Godiva chocolates!

And that particular student gave her a Tiffany & Co. pen for Christmas!Even I want to be a teacher at a British school now!HAHAHA.(If Anati reads this, she will die i think.)HOWEVER, Godiva chocs contain alcohol so we couldn't savour the most expensive chocolates in the world,but i took pictures of my fav ones=).

SO PRETTY CAN?

My mother was like screaming when she saw the chocs and couldn't stop looking at them. She got mad that i kept taking pictures of the chocolates coz i was taking such a long time.(Duh, my cam isn't like those huge DSLR kind.)I think my dad brought the chocs to work today to share with his non-Muslim friends but he took back the gorgeous box. My mom wants it to keep her beads stuff.Anyhooo, I'm off to KL tomorrow for a short shopping getaway! I am sorry (x 8721459731794) to my sistaz for not being able to join you guys for the outing. I know, party pooper.

Ciao=)).

xoxo

2008-02-02T23:23:00.000-08:00

Welcome to the world, Muhammad Harith=).

I am going to be a good girl now and resist all temptations.I must.

is this a joke?

2008-01-31T01:45:00.000-08:00

Don't know how many times i've editted this post.I'm just not at my best right now.And you, be a man,tell me who you really are before pouring your heart out to me.

berserah

2008-01-30T13:15:00.000-08:00

Like any other child, i do get angry at my mother sometimes. And when i am, i'll keep the anger bottled inside and pray to God to keep me patient. I'm lucky God listens to my prayers most of the time. Coz soon everything will be O.K.=)

Thanks for all the wishes about my results.I am happy i did well. But like my sister said, the more grateful you feel,the more you have to keep God close to your heart, coz He can take it all back.

3 in the morning

2008-01-28T03:09:00.000-08:00

Oh look, 3AM and i am wide awake with papers all over the computer table and Enchanted Ost playing on the computer. I had a painful and nerve wrecking time with Tiq, she actually helped me step by step to pick courses to fill my JAE form. But we sidetracked alot, talking about the funniest of things like how Tiq will only have children once her hubby comes home more often and like how i would end up if i take up tourism courses. HAHAHAHA.

Thank you Tiq,you a such a sweetie. Love you!=)

Watched 27 Dresses with Kak Anna,Cher and Shafik last night. The movie was similar to The Wedding Planner, except this one has really funny dialogues!

"I feel like I just found out that my favourite
love song was written about a sandwhich." Jane Nichols

decisions,decisions

2008-01-27T14:09:00.000-08:00

The worrying is never over till its over. I've decided on my first and second choices and I'm praying hard i'll get into either one of them coz my third and forth choices are the only media related course in polytechnics left and they're o-kay la. I seriously have no idea what to put for the next following choices(up to 12!). I don't want to be overconfident and only enter 4 choices coz me and Iffa were given the super looooooooooong lecture by a certain Mr Wah from NP about making the right choice. And that its all about passion.

Choices have consequences-Adam Khoo

[Edit] Recently,I've been exchanging sms-es with my Mindchamps coach,Terenia. She sms-ed me today that she's no longer work here and is transferring to HongKong soon.Oh dear, I'm gonna miss her motherly love and hugs.Her last sms to me made me tear.

"...I miss you guys 2 but we know that we all have our own journey & i'm happy 2 have been part of yours."

I'm gonna miss her alot=(.[Edit/]

lemme tell you

2008-01-24T22:28:00.000-08:00

How was results, eh?Let's keep it short.

Not being invited on stage to receive any award,i felt as if my dreams were dashed. Waiting for my turn to get my result slip was like waiting for my turn to be slaughtered. I was already gripping Anati's hand and crying before my turn. Somehow i felt fate wasn't going to be nice. As i sat,i bawled.Real bad.I couldn't even hear what Ms Lin said, but some words caught my ears.I could not believe what she just told me.I just could not keep my head up so i just took the slip.My friends saw it first.And i could no longer take it when Shahrul slapped reality into my face and said

"Kau da boleh masuk Masscomm seh."

My biggest heartfelt THANK YOU to those special group of people who constantly showered me with endless love,support and belief.These people are none other than my wonderful family, my dear Chargers, the taggers/sms-ers(you know who you amazing people are=]) and special friends like my sistaz, Cheryl, Suriana, Ila & Fiza. Thank you so much.

For once, i know how it feels to achieve a goal. And listening to how happy and proud my parents are- priceless.

PS: Cher, I am still very very dazed.

Syukur Alhamdulillah.

BANG

2008-01-23T21:38:00.000-08:00

I can't believe i'm actually enjoying a conversation with a person whom i completely dont know(i only know the age and name and what he's currently doing). I'm being careful in not revealing too much. But most importantly, I'm more not careful about not getting too involved. Otherwise, i might get hurt again.

HAHA,i dont know how Anati and Kakak do it.

My grandfather is warded at SGH today,so that kinda took my mind off tomorrow.

beautiful day

2008-01-22T21:01:00.000-08:00

Went out with Aishah today to catch Dan in Real Life at GV Vivocity. I had such a fun and crazy time with my bestfriend.The movie was good too- very touching. Thanks Aishah for asking me out,I had lotsa fun. See ya Thursday!(HEHEHE)

"Love is not a feeling, Mr.Burns. Its an ability" Marty Barasco

I simple love watching Kpak Bing Bing with my Dad.

dont worry be happy

2008-01-22T11:45:00.000-08:00

Hi.

So, have you heard? O level results will be released this Thursday!(Damn, i don't have white school shoes)I told my parents i won't tell them what i get till Friday coz that's when my sister will be told whether she gets into Poly too(long story)! So it will either be double happiness,double sadness or one happy one sad situation come Friday. I think you smart readers can tell by then right?HAHA.

Okay,seriously,i should stop laughing and be merry or people might think that i'm not scared for my results and thus thinking that i'm overconfident. I am NOT. I am scared/worries/anxious like any other candidate. I just hope for the best- for me and my friends who sat for O's last year=). Insya Allah.

PS:I so can't wait to be in the hall with my Chargers to take our results. I still remembered how we mugged for our last papers together.And that was the best feeling in the world- knowing that you're not alone.=)

always that something extra

2008-01-18T22:24:00.000-08:00

Robocop dah abes shift makan candy floss.KIDDING!

Fascinated by green apples.

We love the goodies!(the free donuts rocked\m/)

See that booth behind?Our next victim=).

FMS tour!

Radio Heatwave!

Chey!

We toured the 'cities' to enter the lucky draw=)).

Penat tapi penting mesti...maintain.

Ngee Ann Poly Open House was fun!It was easy to go coz there was a free shuttle bus from Clementi MRT. But total journey time is like more than an hour. Anyway,the goodie bag was so nice! It came with a huge pencil case and more goodies inside! And ohh, free Munchy Donuts! I haven't had those since....before O levels!Touring around NP with my buddies made the day even better! They were crazy lah! When we went to this place called Ourspace@72, Anati and Shahrul started walking like astronauts!HAHA!!Crazy people(but i love)!We also went for a tour at the FMS building and it was so cool!The radio station, TV stations, the theatres and more! I was really reaaallllyyy glad we went for the tour, so thank you Sha, Shahrul and Ati for accompanying me=)).I got to try the deejaying thing as well as news reading(thanks eh Shafik).Best la.Apa tidak, we stayed there for like 5 hrs okay.

My besties both are considering NP.How nice if we all went to the same school=).Dont want to say more about this lah. I think its best i wait for my results,then we'll talk. Let's just say this way, its less heartbreaking should anything heartbreaking happen.

bummer.

2008-01-17T14:29:00.000-08:00

I bloghopped to Felina's blog (babe,i miss you like alot) and read that results will be out on 21st January. That's 4 more days, mind you. Not even a week. Like every other Olevel takers, yes i am very scared too. Alot of what ifs running through my mind. I guess everyone has to go through this some day.

what's the deal? part 2

2008-01-16T22:17:00.000-08:00

Today's outing with my sisters (and dear father) was very fun indeed.Hey, we even took a neoprint together,how weird is that?But nothing can compare to this..

My little niece/nephew!

I was speechless when her gynae did the ultrasound and saw the lil one moving! His/her hands looked as if they were waving at us and ohhhh,the heartbeat! I saw this lil one's heartbeat! I'm in love with him/her already!=))))

Anyway, watched Deal or No Deal hunks edition tonight?I think #2 is hot, my sis think #5(coz his hair is like JT's).OMG this night's show was super crazy.Luck was on her(the contestant) side!

My sister bought this mini DOND game and its super duper cute! SO far the highest we've got is US$601,000 by moi!HAHA.You guys should watch Ellen on DOND on Youtube, its hilarious!

what's the deal?

2008-01-15T07:27:00.000-08:00

Now, at this time, this moment, this very second- nothing seems right. Sucks big time. Its like i'm reading up on latest updates about some friends and they are so happy, forget the fact o's results out in a few days, haha. I need a turning point. I need something fresh and new in my life right now.I'm sure none of you know this(except for Aishah bff) but i've been having this identity crisis. So hard to really be myself and not get the wrong idea from other people at the same time too.Sometimes i overthink it so much that i nearly go bonkers. Don't mind this post actually, might be the side effect of this stupid new diet i'm on. Tryna lose some pounds to gain more confidence as i step into a new phase of life (read: poly/jc).

PS:Tiq babe, yes I'm very stressed about getting the results, who isn't! My life & future depends on it. =)

[Edit]Suddenly i fell much better. My sister bought this Deal or No Deal "Board" Game(I love this game,wont miss the Hunks Version,right Ila?HAHA) and i'm gonna play it like,AFTER THIS. And me and my sisters are gg KK tmr then heading out for some shopping. I love girl bonding sessions.[/Edit]

Happy 24 th Birthday Kak Nisa. Your advices always meant so much to me.

my name is earl a/z/i/q/a

2008-01-14T22:41:00.000-08:00

My brother used the newly revamped/installed computer the whole day. If it was not for prayers, i think he would have gotten, erm, chair sores?Wanted to use the PC after coming home from Giant but he still wanted to use it.Well, the PC failed on him.

Anati called earlier,we talked and talked like we have not met for years.HAHA.She told me about her embarrassing moment at the mall- she bumped her head really hard infront of her boyfriend.Then while in the midst of laughing, i remembered.Back in sec sch,when i would bend down to pick something up,she would always put a book above my head so i would bump into it.

KARRRRRMAAAAAAAAAAA-Earl "My name is Earl" style.HAHAHA!

And oh, its totally unfair that everyone i know who went for TP's openhouse bumped into Sleeq, except me.*foldsarms*

BANG!

2008-01-14T00:34:00.000-08:00

Went to Jamilah's birthday party yesterday at Jurong. Was supposedly to meet Wana at MRT at 2PM but she was more than an hour late so I dumped her.HAHA,i just went off first la. And i nearly got lost. OMG, it would be such a nightmare if i really was!

It was a nice party, more like a gathering, but with cake!Ilove cakes!Especially super duper creamy ones like Jamilah's 21st birthday cake!OMG,Jamilah, i keep wanting to call you Fikilla!

Food was great too, although i had to resist eating the briyani and settled for noodles coz my mom also cooked briyani at home!

Fiknatics with the birthday girl!

OMGOMG ,chilling at Jamilah's room was crazy. Ni semua Fiza la. First, dengar lagu dangdut!Then she told us she badly wanted to win the Date with Taufik on Ria so she can entertain him with jokes!AND OMG, that BANG BANG BANG game!I finally got it like after how many rounds. But Ila's MONDAY TUESDAY WEDNESDAY THURSDAY FRIDAY game lagi confusing! I felt like pulling my scarf trying to figure it out!So it was fun=), even though there wasn't all of us. I've never like 'hang out' with Fiza Wana Iryani Ila unless it was taufik-related,haha, so it was fun. Heheeee.

Ok, time to finish some more Word Find and then off to Lala Land.

close door

2008-01-13T01:21:00.000-08:00

Forget it. Forget i ever said anything.This is so confusing.

which P?

2008-01-12T19:12:00.000-08:00

Okay, a proper blog update with pictures=).

Friday, Shahrul, Aishah (too bad Anati couldn't join us) and me decided to go for those polytechnic open houses. They have been sending us like tons and tons of newsletters and all, but better to see for yourself kan? I love receiving them letters, coz duh, its posted to ME.

So first off,

Temasek Poly.

(Sorry but I can't help taking pictures of the greenery from all the poly-s)

We didn't know exactly where to go at first so I told them I wanted to go to the Business School first la( coz I know they have this media course)Later we found ourselves stuck to watch a play" by the Business School students. Okay lah, it was quite entertaining.

How to sell my (fish)balls?LOL.

After the play ended, grabbed some newsletters than headed back outside. Walked around here and there, watched some performances, took our goodie bags and left. We didn't want to miss another open house.

We get this shirt to bring home which just says "i am..." and we're suppose to design it ourselves.Hmmm, i am what ah?

In the train.

Next stop, Nanyang Poly!

Aishah was awed by the 'modernity' of the school- having escalators, and I was awed by the b-e-a-utiful greenery and water fountains!

Cantik kan?Sampai kita semua sempat ber-posing! So Husii how?Can make it for your next NYP newsletter?HAHA.

OOOOOh,talking about Husii,bumped into her at YCK MRT Station.=)I must have scared her coz I was so tired from all the walking and carrying goodie bags that I must have looked like a drag queen!Anyhoo, we headed straight to town for our brunch(it was already about 5PM mind you).After that went home, took a shower, freshen up and sorted out all mags I got from various poly-s.I was so tired that night I couldn't sleep properly!

Today!Today, Aishah & I had a date to TP again for their 13th BOL Seminar. We actually registered last min and I was worried we might not get seats. The thing was at 10am. Janji to meet at 9.15am. 9.15am, i sms-ed Aishah telling her I was just on my way out. I knew something was wrong when she didn't reply my msgs. She was still asleep!OMG, nearly panicked but thank God Aishah got ready superfast(say, 20mins?) and we were already on our way! But the Convention Centre was like at the other end of TP. Yes, we got in finally, and we received the heeyuge goodie bag(again!)!

The seminar was very good. I got a really good idea about the course I'm interested in and i was glad to know if i do enter that course, its just a bus away from home! But seems like ALOT of ppl are interested in that particular course so i guess....,i guess just wait for my results la eh.

Oh SleeQ performed!

I've been trying to upload the videos of their performances on Youtube, but it takes forever so i gave up.HAHA.Raihan, if you want, just beep me.And oh,Alyph is quite funny.

SEE,so nice!Can make another i dream video here.

Oh, saw Iryani!Kinda surprised she recognised me. I was surprised I remembered her name on the spot!HAHA.

This time before rushing off to the other end of S'pore, we had our brunch first (at 1PM).Yes, we learned our lesson.

Next, Singapore Poly!

My Mom actually worked here for her first job.Luckily SP was very convenient.But hey, we got another goodie bag(!!!).

It was kinda crowded at SP. But the OH was good la.After SP,what else?GO HOME LA. Tired already! Next week I'm going to Ngee Ann Poly=).

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So, I have a few courses that I have in mind that I so hope I can enter. I can't see myself doing any other type of courses, honestly speaking. OMGGGG, it all goes down to my results now. ERK, its gonna be released in a few weeks time!Of course I'm worried, esp about my English. I mean,if I don't get B3 or above, i'm screwed.SERIOUSLY. I told my parents that once I get hold of my results, good or bad(touchwood), i'll disappear and let my family become anxious.hahahhaha.

Ok I'm tired.My arms are aching.And those brochures,phamplets,catalogues and newsletters need a read.

cant feel them limbs

2008-01-11T22:43:00.000-08:00

Even though I've only went to TP and NYP's openhouses, I feel like I've toured every single school in Singapore. Yes, that's how tired and dead beat I actually am. But I still have other polytechnics to visit over the next week.

*couchNPcoughifnotcoughfizacoughwillcoughkillmecough*

(That's one super long *cough*!HAHA.)

Note: Goodie bags are fun to get but at least make them compact pls, not too bulky!My arms and shoulders are crying from carrying two very heavy goodie bags, along with my own tote.

~~YAY besok tgk SLEEQ!~~ Errr, I mean besok pergi seminar kat TP=).

PS: Happy 18th Bday, Fiza!

[Updated: It is so weird chatting with my sister's boyfriend.]

songs about girls

2008-01-10T20:09:00.000-08:00

Haha,my handphone is okay already. My dad sort of slammed it and voila, its back to normal. I should probably delete the past entry.

Anyway, today seemed a bit unlucky for me. I accompanied my Mom out. First, I almost fell in bus 27 because it screeched to a halt.Bloody driver, he kept doing that and everyone (those standing) kept leaning to their sides but unlucky me, I was the one who lost my footing. Next, while climbing up the stairs and talking to Mom, I tripped. Nice. And to top it off, while walking, Mom accidentally stepped on my slipper that it came off and my foot landed on a rough rock. It was bloody painful, but Mom blamed me for walking too slowly(._.!).

Talking about Mom, I realised that we both have something in common. For me, if any of you've realised, I tend to stumble on my words whenever I'm like excited to say something. My Mom has the same problem too. The other day she said, "Look, Affa feeding his father" when she meant look, Abah feeding his father. It was hilarious cause it sounded like a tongud twister! So if I happen to stumble upon my words while talking to you, just remember- I got it from my mama. I got it got it got got it.=)

Off to some polytechnic openhouses tomorrow!

hello?

2008-01-08T19:35:00.000-08:00

My handphone died on me today. Its jammed.

re-charge

2008-01-05T23:35:00.000-08:00

Chargers outing today was fun=).It was very simple- simple location, simple food, simple games, simple jokes,but with awesome people. Too bad Shahrul could not join us, or else everyone would have been present.

Even the grass was extra green today=).

Simple food?Nadia's Croissant-which looked so good!Subway, move aside!Haha.

I didn't join them at the water so I entertained myself by taking peek-tures.

The rain did not dampen our spirits. We took the time to get cozy under our pondok talking and playing card games.Ahhhh, girl bonding sessions.After the rain,we packed and headed to Swensen's, Cikgu Salamah's treat!Boy, I was filled to the brim,hahaha. Thanks Cikgu!

And thanks ladies for making my day.

On another note, Felina, I have more reasons (than the one you gave me=P ) to join TP.Haha.

2day

2008-01-03T20:28:00.000-08:00

I accompanied Anati for a job interview at Marks & Spencer today. Same old shit, only send in application form. Went to McCafe after that for a little chit chat session with my bff. Before that we searched frantically around Centrepoint to find soil because Anati, as nervous as she was , accidentally touched a shoe which had pig lining at M&S. It was funny coz she had to 'steal' some soil from a pot to wash her hands. hahaha.

Reached home about 6pm and felt a little sick (mesti jangkit si Anati lah ni). Felt like vomiting too. Kept telling myself "I am not sick.I am not sick" and true enough, that urgh feeling is gone,Alhamdulillah. Mind over matter,people.

Maybe that feeling is gone too because I'm going back to Junyuan this Saturday for a visit with my Chargers and we're going for mini picnic after that as well.Yay!

Dear God, pls make Yaya get well soon.

second day

2008-01-02T13:24:00.000-08:00

I was probably the happiest girl today because I didn't have to rush to school early in the morning.=))I dreamed of meeting my chargers last night and now I'm sad because my dreams never come true.=((

01.01.08

2008-01-01T00:00:00.000-08:00

Happy new year everyone=).
Hellooooo 2oo8!

two oh oh seven

2007-12-31T20:14:00.000-08:00

There is definitely alot to miss from 2007. And I still can't believe 2008 is just 4 hrs and 20 mins away. Unbelievable.2007 marks a special year for me- its my growing year. Seriously, I have learnt, experienced and went through a hell lot this year.

School. I miss school.I miss 4E1,badly. Especially my Chargers ( I'm sorry Syaza for not making it for your outing, and now you think we're falling apart). Teachers dedicated every second they had to help us prepare for the O levels. How can I forget our Adam Khoo workshop? It marked the start of big dreams and huge efforts. I remembered how me and my friends used to think "Damn, how will it feel once O's is over" and we will all laugh to think we had yet to sit for it. Now, we are either working,slaving away at provisional JC or enjoying our last months slacking at home (it sure feels super good to know that I don't have to hurry myself to school on the Jan 2nd) . I loved school. I love learning. I loved when me and my Chargers would stay back at school at night or early in the morning to study together. At that point, I could imagine everyone growing up to be successful in their own ways.=)

Mindchamps. OMG,how can I ever forget my experience with Mindchamps? Its the best thing that ever happened to me this year. I learned so many things that I couldn't have learned in school and it was a huge eye-opener for me. MC have provided me the weapons I need to face the world, if you catch my drift. And oh, the lovely class I had and the friends I've made!

Working towards it.Haha, thinking back, I can fall off my seat. I enjoyed every minute living the dream every time I had the oppurtunity to host an event,in school and in public. Thanks Shahrul for inviting me to co-host the Financial Aid Bursary Awards @ the mosque and Cheryl for allowing me to become the emcee for the bash. I loved every single minute of it. It meant so much to me that you guys had trust in me in pulling it off=). Living the dream does not end this year bunnies! Look out for my article on BH next year,haha!

2007 marks the year when a lot of tears were shed. I remember how I would always cry whenever I felt crappy and lonely- side effects of being under pressure. I would cry whenever I feel that I was a failure and was worthless, but thank god for my family & friends who reassured me countless times that I wasn't all that. This year, I also got very close to my dear parents, alhamdulillah. For the first time, I cried and poured my heart out to my mother, telling her that I was so afraid of disappointing her again. And my dad, he always reminded me about the stars.During the O level period, I remembered receiving smses of moral support from lovely people. It made me feel so much better. It made me see who my real friends are.

2008 sure is year to look out for. I (along with other Olevel candidates) will finally see where the fate of my results will bring me to. New environment,new friends. How exciting(but scary as well)! And oh, my family will finally expand with the birth of my first niece/nephew in August!

And yes, I'll be watching Channel 5's Countdown @ Vivocity tonight at home. Its something I do every year.

I'm looking forward to see where I'll be, what I'll be doing this time next year.=)))

TB does not only stand for Taufik Batisah

2007-12-30T23:00:00.000-08:00

" To: Aziqa
Love the time when we MC together!
Love, Taufik "

After so long MIA-ing from the scene, I have thus made a comeback.Haha, no lah, my Teman happened to be autograph-less and that's a no-no. Taufik looked great, sporting a new haircut which he is so proud of.haha.Thanks Aishah for accompanying me, I had a crazy & fun time with you!We watched I Am Legend (F.O.C) before the event started and yes, that movie is currently my favourite. Will Smith rocks big time.I skipped breakfast and lunch the entire day, so after the event, me and Aishah went to KFC back at Tampines for our branch + dinner. Madness with my girlfriend!

Love ya babe!

And oh, Taufik, sorry for the accidental cop-criminal session just now, I was just curious.haha.

'tis a season to be jolly, tra la la la

2007-12-29T18:38:00.000-08:00

Crashed Raz's place yesterday for the Christmas Party cum Post-Bash Gathering with the TB.net team.

It was fun.Crazyyy fun.
From the start when Cheryl was heating up the food in the kitchen and Raz talking nonsense/dirty because he was starving rightttt to the end when we watched the video of the Bash.
And the dresscode!Oh the dresscode was a hard one!HAHA,i think i was overdressed.
But the games were fun!!!Kak Shanns youngest daughter is sooooo adorable ( i love her! ) and i still think my group's Christmas tree rocked.haha.

Peek-tures!Thanks to Suriana( my mrt-bus buddy! )

Mad-ness=)).

Raz,you should have worn a Santa outfit!

And oh, the gift exchange!
I got this b-e-a-u-tiful mug from Kak Su!

And this gorgeous cupcake which is toooo-cute-to-eat from Cheryl!

Psst Cher, i loved your homemade spaghetti & pizza!

Arrived home near 1:00 AM and I'm lucky enough my parents did not slaughter me. They did not even scold me, hehe.
I had such a fun time @ Raz's. Kept laughing & laughing till my lips went dry. LOL.

d.i.d.i

2007-12-29T16:25:00.000-08:00

While waiting for my mum to buy otah otah from the hawker centre, my sister and i blasted the radio listening to Kasih Mengapa- Rauzan on Ria. We were sitting like ahpeks, crossed legged in the car.And Didicazli just had to walk right infront of us.I told my sister it was him. My sister's jaw dropped. She then opened the window, honked and screamed his name. Too bad he already crossed the road and already went up to his flat. Thank God, actually.

My sister is now angry at me, she's a huge fan of Dambaan lah. haha.

long rants

2007-12-27T22:14:00.000-08:00

I went through all the magazines from respective polytechnics in Singapore and picked out a number of courses (o.k lah,only 3) that I wish to enter. Mostly courses involving media, journalism.Somehow, when I took a step back to comprehend what was happening, I kept thinking "Can I even enter?Will I survive?".

I looked at the C.O.P,the minimum for English is a B3.
I looked at the pictures, the students taking these media courses are all smart and good-looking. Wearing such nice and trendy clothes, that I can't even imagine myself as one of them.

O level results are drawing nearer. And I am getting much more stressed by day.Alot of what ifs going through my mind, you know. I mean, do I really want to be involved in media- related stuff? Yesterday during the chalet, we watched the video of the Bash. Looking back, I wasn't that great. In fact, I seemed more like an extra while Kak Su & Taufik were entertaining the audience. Really!Anyhooos, I loved the experience.=)

On another note, I'm contemplating whether I should go for a job interview tomorrow with Anati. I don't know if I'm up for it. I'm just sick of staying at home, feeling useless. And the people who always ask me "Not working?", makes me feel even worse. It does not help that my mother is against the idea of me working because she's worried I might lose interest in my studies. Mummy, that is highly impossible. I want to work solely because I want to kill time and make money so for once, I can chip in to pay for something in the house. I already feel very guilty letting my sister pay for the new hi-5 and tv for our room by herself. She's already paying my tab for the stuff I ordered from Avon( she insisted though, since she got her bonus)

I think that's enough ranting for today.I hate feeling useless. Feeling useless makes me feel fat too. Grrrr.

family picnic

2007-12-25T19:19:00.000-08:00

I simply love beach outings with my family.
I don't have to worry about what to bring.
I don't have to worry about what to wear.
No frills,no mess.

No,scratch that mess part.
HEEHEEEEEE.

Going to the beach is like going for hajj.
Seriously.

As you enter, you have to tawaf the carpark for a slot.
Don't forget about the jemaah.The rows & rows of tents!

See how close our tent was to the rest!Cute.

Finally,I got some proper exercise. Cycling!

Waiting for the rain to end.

Very deprived girls.

Okay I have a chalet tomorrow. Somehow I feel a little unwell today. Gotta rest.

=))
And oh, before I end,my brother showed me this sweet sms he got from his friend.
I thought I should share this with you.

If a fat man in red comes into your room in the middle of the night and shoves you into a bag, don't be scared coz I told Santa I wanted a friend like you for Christmas.

=)

bash updated!

2007-12-24T23:23:00.000-08:00

Every fiknatic I know who owns a blog have blogged about the bash and our photos are probably alike,but here's my version anyway. Sorry its been a week, but I've been caught up with other stuff.Hehe.

45 mins before the bash started, me & Su went through our lines & the cue cards I prepared at 2 a.m. over & over again. Luckily our brains were still full with brain juices to think of ideas to make the bash an unforgettable one not only for us,but for the 160 strong crowd(including the birthday boy).

I think we were successful, VERY SUCCESSFUL.

So here's some of the photos.

Me & Su doing our thing=)))).

One of the games. The audience really enjoyed themselves,so did I!
" Cow!..Monkey!..Cow!..Monkey!"- Me
" Kau!..Aku!..Kau!..Aku!"- Taufik

Sharing session was fun. Its not every time you get to share a sofa with a famous celebrity!

Group photos=)).
The photos are courtesy of our amazing photographer, Lee Xian Jie . He is really professional I tell you. Ready One Two Three...Click!

Credits to Kak Shad. Sistaz grp photo, but not complete!

Okay, abit more about me being the host=).
I was very, VERY excited ok!
But it was abit scary for me.

For me,being an emcee for such an important event basically meant stepping out of my comfort zone.
Maybe you should see this and you would understand what I'm babbling about=).

Kak Anna, I learned this at Mindchamps.
You see everytime you challenge yourself by stepping out of your comfort zone, you will eventually reach, well,..success.
And that feeling, is the best feeling in the world=DDDD.

I remembered when Cher came up to me & Su telling us that it was our time to step out from behind the curtain. I just told myself that I could do it, no problem.Heeheee. And true enough, I let my hair down(metaphorically) and just let loose! I think my dear sistaz were shocked by how spontaneous and silly I was on stage, I'm usually not like that. But tell me to do something I love, and I'll give my all!

The bash kicked off smoothly, thank God. Every time me & Su had to stall, we did it smoothly as well! Surprisingly, I was still calm & cool even when sharing the stage with Taufik. Very surprising indeed!

The games were nothing but pure fun fun fun! I'm glad everyone enjoyed themselves!

However, the bash ended abruptly due to overcrowding(HEHE), but as long as everyone enjoyed themselves, I think the bash went well. Of course it did, the team did a brilliant job organizing the event!YAY!

Before I end, I just want to say a HEE-YUGE THANK YOU to the team(esp Cher) & my Dad for believing in me that I could pull the whole emcee thing off. It meant so much to me you know.
And many thanks to those who commented that I did a good/great job emceeing. It made my day!
And of course, thank you kakak for helping me pick out an outfit for the bash and reminding me about the importance of pleasing myself first.

(And oh, I apologize from the bottom of my heart to anyone who was offended by what I said or did while I was busy being an amazing emcee with Su.)

wadya know

2007-12-20T00:07:00.000-08:00

16 year-old Jamie Lynn Spears ( younger sister of the notorious Britney Spears) has confimed with the media that she is indeed pregnant.

W to the O to the W.

Anyway, Salam AidilAdha to all and Happy 24th Birthday,Kak Girl! May your baby be as cute as a pumpkin!

afterbash

2007-12-18T20:17:00.000-08:00

Hello!
I've not updated about the wonderful BASH just yet because I still have not collected all the photos yet.You guys know how much I love adding pictures to my entries!
So people!Keep those photos coming!
I need them for my blog entry & also for an article which I'm writing(HEHE)!
Don't worry I'll credit you of course=)

Reply to TAGS:
Rusyda- HAHA!Omg thank you so much!Raz also said me n Su had great chemistry on stage!
Kak Anna-Must we??HAHAHA.Were you shocked by my spontanness?YAY for Hady!
Husii- Heeeeeeeee!Thanks love!Glad you loved my dance:P I don't do tt just for anyone you know!
Cher- OMGXZXZ.Thank you Cheryl for believing so much in me!I love you so much for allowing me to host the bash!
Fiza- HAHA,what words?You keep rawking on too! NP rocks!:P
Ila- Soon,babe,soon!Thanks=)))))
Malliennah- OMG!!you were super calm & collected!Maintain abes!My lightbulb dance? HAHAH, that was a special treat for the audience & the bday boy:P

afterbash

2007-12-16T18:01:00.000-08:00

I have this best feeling in the world.
=)))))))))
[Edit]I dunno why some fellow S'poreans are unhappy, but I am so glad that Hady Mirza became the first Asian Idol. Because personally,I felt like the entire S'pore won.WE won=)
Hapyhadys must be beaming with pride!

big bang

2007-12-16T01:00:00.000-08:00

Tomorrow, tomorrow
I love ya tomorrow
Tomorrow's only a day away

HOLD IT!
According to the time now[12.56PM],tomorrow is today,today is already "tomorrow"!!!!
AHHHHH,the anxiety is chewing my guts and slowly eating me up, if I'm not being too subtle.haha.

2007-12-11T19:22:00.000-08:00

"If someone prayed for the family to be closer, do you think God zaps them with warm fuzzy feelings, or does he give them opportunities to love each other?"- 'God'Evan Almighty(2007)

Happy Bday Men!

2007-12-10T07:55:00.000-08:00

Happy 48th Birthday to the handsome-est father in the whole wide world,
Abah!
Thank you for always lifting my spirits up whenever I feel that the world doesn't appreciate me=) You are indeed,the best father in the whole wide world and I love you so much!
Thank you for everything(the laughters the tears the shopping trips the crappy jokes the advices the ben&jerry'ss ...).=)

Oh, Happy 26th Birthday to you too,Taufik!
See yooooooo on the 16th!

so sick

2007-12-08T17:41:00.000-08:00

i am sick sick sick sick sick of this.

stm

2007-12-06T21:49:00.000-08:00

Thanks babe for accompanying me to shop for birthday presents and helping me choose/carry the items. Hehe!It was great having you around talking about all sorts of things under the sun. Okay, now I miss Aishah.

Two days of heavy rain,both days I went out shopping, haha.

My lil niece is super cute. I think she's got short term memory.
2 days ago she came by my house, showed me her brand new samsung handphone and even let me listen to You Can't Stop The Beat on her phone.
Half an hour ago, she nudged me at MSN, telling me she's got a new phone and even wanted me to listen to You Can't Stop The Beat.

back okay

2007-12-05T00:08:00.000-08:00

Just picking up where I left off before I went into the world of notes & books.

Gisele: Is that the only word you know? "No?"
Robert: No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no. I mean, No!
Gisele: "No! No! No!" It's always "No!" with you. It just makes me so... You make me so...angry.

hassle

2007-12-03T21:14:00.000-08:00

Omggggg.Changing email address is such a hassle.

Happy Birthday Nayi, next year dah jadi kakak eh!Hidup high school musical!

waterbabies

2007-12-02T21:16:00.000-08:00

Today;
today was better than yesterday.

Lunch @ Grandaunt's place.

Isn't this bubbly baby simply adorable?*squeezecheeks*

I guess I left my bikini at home.Haha!

Anyway,looking at these cute lil kiddos really makes me anxious to see what my future nephew/niece looks like. Next year,kan Kak Girl?HEEEEEE!!

Till then;

Have a great weekend ahead=).

loveeeuuuuu

2007-11-30T22:14:00.000-08:00

..I...can't....breathe.

Watching their video is addictive. Watching them(and the way they behave) cracks me up.

Ahhh,i love my nights online!

mum's e word

2007-11-29T22:08:00.000-08:00

Because words; when said, cannot be taken back nor erased from the memory.
So I shall just cool down and keep mum.

go-blog

2007-11-25T22:45:00.000-08:00

With what I just read online, about bloggers setting up blogs solely to hit on other bloggers,
I could just stop blogging for life!

highyyyyyy

2007-11-22T17:17:00.000-08:00

T h a n k y o u s o m u c h y o u m a d e m e h i g h i w a n n a t o u c h t h e s k y<3>
_______________________
Yes!I'm finally done with that Accounting Course!It was okay lah,do-able. Although I nearly had a cardiac arrest when I accidentally closed the program but Sam restored it for me!=)))

PSLE results are out and I'm happy for my brother for what he got.As long as he's okay with it. Thing is, now he plans to go to my ex-school.Hahaha!Sebok!

Okay, I really can't wait for the bash(more like can't wait to help!) and I just wanna be happy as Larry for the next few days. It feels so good to be happy and merry!

Lately,I think my pictures are like too big. I should really cut down on the pictures I post coz I've no more space in my Photobucket account! I've been deleting past pictures to make way for current ones.Gosh,wadya expect. I had this blog since 2005!

Okay I wanna watch TV.

Prom Nite

2007-11-20T15:55:00.000-08:00

Prom Nite 2007 @ Marina Mandarin Hotel.

Aishah Nadia Me Anati

Highlight of the night?....
...SLEEQ!

I love love love love teasing Nadia!HAHA!Each time Sleeq performs and look over our table, I'll yell "Nadia!Nadia loves Sleeq!".HEHE!Once Alyph(or issit Syarif?) saw me pointing to Nadia(who was pinching me!) and he winked and called us to the dance floor. Haha. Nadia, I know you like hor!

Some of the boys from my class.

Dancing to Sleeq's beat.

Can't get enough of them,eh? =P

US.

Prom Queen & King finalists,all looking hawt!

The band which each member just play their own tune.Chet.

Me with Mrs Tan & Prom Queen & King, Felina & Shahrul!

Class photo!

With Ms Lin.

CHARGERS.

With Mrs Ramos & Mr Jae.

With Ms Z & Mdm Fauziah,people who made the night happen!

=)
Haha.I tell you,our table got feng shui okay!
Why?
o1. The Prom Queen & King came from our table.
o2.Almost everyone at our table won the lucky draw.
o3. Sleeq sat at our table!(Beside Anati!=P)

Talking about Sleeq, I think they make really good music.And they are so young some more.
Thanks Felina for inviting them!

Woke up at noon today so I missed the LCCI(haha!).Tomorrow is the damn exam,which I don't care if I pass or not. Computerised Accounting is not for me. I can type the accounting lists and payment and such but all those debit note and stuff, really confuses me.

Anyway,to wrap things up,I thought Prom Nite was fantastic. Bottom line,everyone enjoyed themselves=). I had a really fun time screaming and cheering and cracking jokes with my gals and whatever.Hehehe.

Time really flew fast,though.

Thanks Dad, for sponsoring my entire outfit and for chauffeuring me and my gals to and fro.
Thanks Mom, for picking my dress.
Thanks my sisters, for prom-hunting with me and getting me ready for the night=).

Mum's potato gratin is calling me!

confident communicator

2007-11-19T00:52:00.000-08:00

I had truly remarkable and memorable weekend down @ Buona Vista.
Thanks to my friends at Confident Comm.
2 and a half days.
2 speakers.
A room full of energetic teenagers.
Perfect=).

I have so much to say.But let the pictures do the talking.

LOVE=).

We love Terenia.

With Terenia,shes like a mother to me.And with Kayne, who actually called me Jessica. Haha!

Left,with Kelvin.The guy on the right,Edmund I think,loved the way he acted as Ginger(Spice Girl)!!

Here's another for the memories.

I presented too okay!But my Mom took a video so no need to show lah,so shy.HAHA! Basically, I did a sort of "Parent Advertisement".My dad was very sporting and he was crowned as the cool dad!

It was nice to be with my class together coz again we're so close. (And we're the noisiest!Thanks to the malay gals and chinese boy.Lol.)I'm kinda sad that my journey with Mindchamps has officially ended.That means no more seminars or classes.Nothing.

I will miss the craziness, the laughters, the tears, the hugs, the dancing(:P) and especially the motivators who each have left such a huge impact on me.You guys just don't know how much my self-esteem has been boosted up because of your belief in me.

And of course,my parents,who spent t h o u s a n d s of their hard-earned money to send me and my brother on this wonderful and unforgettable journey with Mindchamps.Thanks=).

I am proud to be a champion.

This journey has taught me so much on life, on me and on the people around me.

And I just can't wait to face the world=))))).

Mindchamps indeed, is one of the best things that ever happened to me.Serious.

Network Executive: For God's sake, Chris! The whole world is watching. We can't let him die in front of a live audience!
Christof: He was born in front of a live audience.
-The Truman Show

For those who haven't watch this story,I highly recommend it. It is such a beautiful and sad story. It is about a man(played by Jim Carrey),whose life since the day he was born was all a lie and that he lived in a huge studio and is being filmed 24 hrs a day,7 days a week without him knowing it.His wife is not his wife. His mother is not his real mother.They're all just actors. Its amazing how this story ends. It just proves that all you need is to first belief in yourself, and nothing can stop you.

With that,I end my post. Look @ the time now. I don't really want to sleep because I still can't get my fantastic weekend outta my head. But I really need to catch up on some zzzzzzs.

"Good morning, and in case I don't see ya, good afternoon, good evening, and good night!" Truman Burbank.

And oh, Art said goodbye to me just now:P. Real gentlemen make my knees weak.

today sigh today

2007-11-17T22:57:00.000-08:00

Today;
today I felt only my Dad and my Munchkin friends were the only ones who truly appreciate me.
End of rant.
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Mom brought me out to buy my prom outfit just now after Mindchamps. Initially I had picked a turquoise tube dress which really suits my sister's expensive stilettos(duh,i was gonna wear a jacket) and even imagined myself wearing it to prom but Mom didn't like it.I really loved it though. So we picked another one. I was still happy at the end of the night because all in all,I knew there was no point wearing an outfit my mom objects to as it will only make me uncomfortable and guilty. How to have fun at Prom Nite then? Irritating brother asked me whether I had a date.As in a male date. Sheesh. Anyway,thanks Mummy for accompanying me.
Oh yeaa,while walking out of Isetan @ Tampines Mall,we bumped into Fendi( Live the Dream Soloist Winner).Unconsciously,I let out a "Eh Mi, Fendi" right under his nose.Silly me. He was there shopping I guess.

Gotta finish my assignment for tmr and sleep early. Last day of Confident Communicator tomorrow! You know,I really miss Brent & Taki.=(They are the best.

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#Updated: OMG.I think I'm gonna miss this year's Bash yet again.Urgh.WHYYYY?Unfairnessss.

In the morning,I was hurt(emotionally).
In the afternoon,I was high & happy.
In the evening, I was thankful & excited.
And now,I'm back to feeling sad.

graduation goodbye

2007-11-16T15:17:00.000-08:00

Graduation was great.
The tears,the screams,the anxiety,the hugs.
Although it seemed brief and short.

Ms Lin, your video was super sweeeeet. The girls in my class were practically crying and laughing watching it=)

To the teachers (and principal) who have taught me for the 2 years in the E1 class,thank you so much for everything. For the lessons on your respective subjects and for the lessons on life. Indeed I have spent my best years in JY. I feel blessed to have such caring teachers who do not see me as a failure, but someone who has so much potential to soar even further. When I'm feeling low with nowhere to go,I know my teachers are there for me. Most importantly,they never ever gave up on me.
(Mrs Sharon Tan,you're not in the pic but I still love you=))

To my dear 4E1,
thanks for the friendship and class spirit. I've never felt so bonded to a class before and thank you for making 4E1 such a special class to me.=))

To the Chargers,
thanks for the love,support and friendship. I have sailed through O levels and still remain sane because of you guys! Yes,we do have different opinions at times but that doesn't stop us from having fun!Thank you for picking me up when I am down.Thank you for the group studying. It really made me feel that I have very thoughtful and caring friends.=))Really saddens me that I can't join you guys at TPRAWKS!!. If I could,I would have gone for sure.

Alhamdulillah,finally settled my Prom Nite payment. Actually,I'm not that excited to go.
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*Dear you,you might not realise it,but you really hurt me. By the things you don't do and the things you promised to do but didn't.See how it just kills the mood?

LCCI sucks

2007-11-15T20:07:00.000-08:00

Ihatethestoopidaccountingcourse.Ihatethestoopidaccountingcourse. Ihatethestoopidaccountingcourse.Ihatethestoopidaccountingcourse.
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Ihatethestoopidaccountingcourse.Ihatethestoopidaccountingcourse. Ihatethestoopidaccountingcourse.Ihatethestoopidaccountingcourse.
Ihatethestoopidaccountingcourse.Ihatethestoopidaccountingcourse.
Ihatethestoopidaccountingcourse.Ihatethestoopidaccountingcourse. Ihatethestoopidaccountingcourse.Ihatethestoopidaccountingcourse.
Ihatethestoopidaccountingcourse.Ihatethestoopidaccountingcourse.
IshouldhavegonetoTPRAWKS!!IshouldhavegonetoTPRAWKS!!

The accounting s*** I signed up was worthless,compared to the fun my girlfriends are having at TPRAWKS!!. I have strained my poor eyes and ears.And the lecturer isn't helping. Why the hell did I want the cert?

I love doing manual Principle of Accounts.Rather than computerised accounting.

Went out with my sister to find a prom outfit jut now.Gosh all so expensive.

My brother is graduating from Primary School tomorrow.

I'm graduating from Secondary School=).

looking on the brighter side

2007-11-13T22:46:00.000-08:00

I am/was overreacting.

According to Rusyda's email(different birthdates signify different characters), mine said:
"........ and proper. You like all situations and things to be in the way you desire, which, sometimes is not possible. As a result, you may lose out in some relationships. But otherwise, you love to help people out from difficult and tight spots when they really need you."

Okay okay, I'll chill next time.
I just wanted it to be as perfect as it could be.
=)

So O levels are officially over.Hurray.

smeagle

2007-11-12T12:34:00.000-08:00

I'm not going lah on the 17th,or the issit the 16th?Whatever.
I just remembered that I have something on.And now I feel stupid coz I told some people that I was sure to go.Nice.

I hate stayin at home.Its nice I get to spend more time with my family,but they are also occupied with their own stuff. And all I do is watch show after show on telly.What's worse, I am so paranoid that I'm gonna gain weight.

This doesn't mean that I'm so desperate for a job,I just need to go out. With my gals,with the Chargers,my family or whoever.Now I'm beginning to think that I was much better off two weeks ago cramming for O's.At least I had something to do.

What's more,I get so easily agitated at home.Damn hormones..

I can't go TPRawks!! to taste Wana's waffles and attend a smashing concert with Sleeq, I can't accompany Anati for the walk-in job interview this week, I can't plan an outing with my gals and I can't go this 17th or 16th(whichever it is).

I better get the freaking LCCI Accounting cert and enjoy myself at Confident Comm.

Now let me go find some corner to hide.Unlike Tiq(hehe),I still have alot of POA-ing to do. For the paper tomorrow and for the LCCI course.

jalan raya

2007-11-09T19:40:00.000-08:00

Raya Meet-Up @ Syaza/Cikgu Salamah's.
Syaza's house is beautiful=)But I didn't see her two tigers though.
Anyway,her mum's mi soto was really a great meal to start off the day!

My dear bestie sooo engrossed watching telly.

Me with Syaza(aka Charger) & Aishah.

Nadia Felina Syaza

Jannah Felina Syaza

And of course,the Chargers.(Anati Aishah Aziqa Syaza Felina Nadia Shahrul)
The group study we did Tuesday morning was great.Amin said that during the preparation for O levels,we will see who our real friends are=).

Raya with the Fiknatics.
@ Tiq's!

The REDS.

The YELOWWISHORANGE.

The ROJAK.
Ohhh Tiq,your suji sedap!

@ Kak Anna's

The FS.(Kak Mira and Mal missing)

Oh Kak Anna!Your TV sungguh besar!And I soooooo love your mom's mi siam!!! It was sooo nice,the soup was so hot!So long since I had mi siam.=))))))

@ Kak Kira's.
@ Kak Kira's we were almost bushed having traveled for an hour on the bus.Haha!But I enjoyed watching High School Musical2 there(I don't have cable,heh).Loved her ice cold ice longan.

Raz,stop it seh with your koala pose!HAHAHA!!!

Overall it was a loooong day but it was fun lah.Been raya-ing with the Fiknatics for 3 years now and its been great=).

change

2007-11-02T22:13:00.000-07:00

I know it makes me sound very selfish to say that I find it hard to adapt to changes I don't initiate.

But I'm trying,okay.

smankies

2007-10-29T13:18:00.000-07:00

The sms I sent to my dad just now after the paper:
Alhamdullilah paper maths two was okay!i answer all cool aje.tak sia sia Abah tercekik chikong ajar Aziq maths!Haha!!!
His reply:
Thats what dad is for
..........
=)I am thankful for the very supportive family I have.

On another note,I'm so hearbroken upon coming across something.But I guess you can't have it all eh?

atuk

2007-10-22T12:39:00.000-07:00

I wonder how my dear classmates from 4E1 are doing.I mean our written exams begin on Wednesday.
Anati has mixed emotions.Hehe.
Me?I don't know what to feel.

You see my paternal grandfather,the one and only grandparent I have left in this world, was hospitalised a few days ago and had to go under the knife to remove two blood clots. In his brain.

I was so torn upon seeing him at the hospital like this. With all those tubes running through his head and veins.

What tore me most was how cruel people can be. How disrespectful and ungrateful people can actually be behind our backs.

What's happening after this?
Well my Mom wants to take my grandfather to our house to live with us. She will have to quit her job to do that. Looks like we'll have to get those hospital beds specially for him.Well,its just a plan for now,nothing confirmed. I'm actually excited because I kinda like changes but I know its unfair to say that because I know you need a really high tolerance level to care for the aged and elderly.But then again,that's my grandfather. It doesn't matter if he doesn't even know my name but no doubt his blood runs in my veins.

So tell me,what should I feel?

d'day

2007-10-18T00:20:00.000-07:00

Today is the day.
The beginning of the series of events(or papers) that will take place right up till early November(for me,its officially Nov13).

To the Chargers(as Shahrul calls us), 4E1,cousins(Razwani,Khairiyah) and dear friends (Tiq,Iffa,Malliennah),
All the best and we CAN DO THIS YA'LL!

Please send cats monkeys and zebras in large hired cages make sure gold padlocked.

Here we come O levels.Roarrrrr.Hehe=).

hari raya

2007-10-16T23:22:00.000-07:00

Selamat

Hari

Raya!!!

Mohon maaf zahir dan batin=).

For Hari Raya this year,I'm just really glad I get to spend it with my family and close relatives despite only visiting for a day.

I'm glad to see these kiddos I love are out of the hospital.

They(and their parents) spent most of their time at Raffles Hospital during Ramadhan.

So,Practical is the day after tomorrow.
Wish me luck.
For the entire Os.Heh.

marhaban ya ramadhan

2007-10-10T23:20:00.000-07:00

Look how fast times flies.We're left with only two more days of Ramadhan.

I admit that this year's Ramadhan isn't the best one for me.

I haven't fully commit myself to the holy-est month and I'm ashamed.
I've not even been to the mosque once to pray terawih.I went so many times last year.
I don't even care if I've only been to Geylang once(with my chicks).
Time is precious to me right now.

On top of that,my mother just spent S$130 on my brother's Levi's jeans(how unfair,i don't even own one) and Bata shoes for raya. For me?I'm reusing what I wore for Kak Girl's wedding and I'm borrowing her wedding shoes too. Well,I plan to only celebrate the first day and then quarantine myself at home till I'm done with the Olevels,so I guess there's no reason to splurge on new shoes/bags/clothes. It doesn't help that my brother is done with his PSLE and was returned his XBox and GameBoy. I'm just gonna be cooped up like a chicken.At home.Head in the books.

I will miss Ramadhan.Because during this special month,I feel truly safe and at peace(knowing that Allah will pay more attention to my prayers). I can walk at dark alleys and even go to the bathroom in the middle of the night because I feel safe.Haha. Its sad that Ramadhan is ending. Who knows, I might not live to see the next Ramadhan.

Here I am,telling the whole world how much Ramadhan means to me.
When some people can't even be bothered(of course,I'm referring to the fellow Muslims).

I was waiting for my brother @ Mac in the afternoon just now.
After barely standing there for 3 mere minutes, a family and two school boys(I'm not sure if both boys Malays,highly think so) bought ice creams and milkshake and happily consumed them in public. They shamelessly, ignored the fact that I was there. The fact that its the fasting month.Tsk.

Oh,Ms Nadya Camelia dropped by our place to deliver some rolls. She looks so much better in person. Really sweet I must add. Too bad the orders were mixed up. Hehe. Nice to finally meet face to face.(",)

Ok I'm dead beat and I have Maths to finish.

Till then.

last phase

2007-10-04T22:57:00.000-07:00

I miss Mrs D,terribly.
Everytime I fail to get A for English or Literature,I feel like I've disappointed her.
I miss her sarcasm +jokes +singing.
=)

I've been listening to You are the music in me- HSM on loop and I don't know why. It makes me happy.Happy,Anati, not high.Hehe.

We are left with the last phase of Ramadhan.Gosh,how time flies.

Tomorrow is officially the last time 4E1 will be 4E1.
After tmr,we're on our own.
After tmr, we're just gonna be a memory of 4E1.

A very pleasant memory=).

gee,thanks

2007-10-02T16:52:00.000-07:00

You know what hurts?Being neglected and made like a target to hate,a target to vent your anger.Like that is so fair to me.
Doubleyouteeage.
I'm only human and I have feelings too,if you've forgotten.

thankies

2007-09-30T22:31:00.001-07:00

Just finished stapling 30 sets of answer sheets.
Hope it was all worth it.
I love my Dad.

siao!

2007-09-29T01:00:00.000-07:00

Spend the entire night finishing the Bio definitions.
Came across some funny stuff I got through email.

Sometimes I do feel like this.

His idea of Expansion!

I hope it won't happen to me or my girls for Os.Gelak seh!

But this one kinda cool,eh?

Good ~~night~~ morning!

finally on hiatus

2007-09-23T21:50:00.000-07:00

As of tomorrow 24.09.07,it will mark one month before my first Olevel written examinations.

Preliminary Examinations were tough ,needless to say, but it was a good 'experiment' to see how I'd prepare for the real thing. I'll be getting my results this week and whatever results I get, I will not be satisfied if its crap even though many say Prelims aren't a good estimation for Os. I'll take it as I still have areas I'm unsure of and I have a freaking month to get it right.

So yes,I will be on hiatus for this coming month.I shall resist on updating on Hari Raya this year:P.
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On a lighter note.

Last Friday,me an my buddies were completely lost with absolutely no sense of where to go. You see,we just went through a hectic week of Prelims and we thought we might want to take a break.So it was 9am,not many places to go.We even walked from school to the interchange.

We spent a good 10 minutes standing at Tampines Interchange contemplating where to go. Movies,Hairpsray was decided. But the cinemas were closed.

So I dunno, we ended up playing at the escalators at TM and running around Cold Storage at CS. Damn hilarious,I tell you.

And of course,to kill more extra time,we took neoprints!And boy,we look so big,as in mature-big!HAHA!

Reached home at about 1.Had a light snack(wasn't fasting due to a girl thang).Watched Last Holiday and half of Pink Panther before dozing off right up to Maghrib.Kinda weird coz afternoon naps give me headaches.

Ok,so I'm done with this entry.

Have a nice week.

i see red.

2007-09-20T16:16:00.000-07:00

Miss Red is finally here,but she's late..
Replies!(I was really surprised by the long tags,THANKS!)

Hira: Thanks!Hugs back to you sunshine!
Superstar Fiza: I do most of the times.But sometimes...
Ila: I do?HEHEH.Thanks.I just really applaud you for entering JC and still going strong!
Iffa: Insya Allah.Prelims aje macam nak rak.Lol!
Felina: Yeaa I know.Boy,I really hate the slogging.
Syaza: Ape je Charger! Charger ape kurang nye=).
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I got tired of the old skinO.o.
Anyone who has any interesting quotes on life or anything cute or sweet( basically anything under the sun!),send them to me! I'll use it in my header!I did this one myself=P. The original one was about love. Lol.

POA drove me nuts.Tomorrow is the last paper(of Prelims).

Thank God.

i feel the bite

2007-09-18T15:05:00.000-07:00

As you travel through life,
your dreams will guide you,
determination will get you there,
and love will provide the greatest scenery of all.

- Michelle C. Ustaszeski -

I am mostly exhausted nowadays.I don't know why-my stomach is empty,so is my brain I guess. Not blaming anyone/anything here.Its a test and I know it.

I just hope my parents know that all the effort I'm putting in,is because I'm no genius and I hope they won't use me as a reason to force my brother to study as well.

My brother is like 10x smarter than me. His Brain Gym coach told my Mom he has the Express Stream in his hands(my brother's taking his PSLE this year).

Imagine Anati,Felina,Iffa,Malliennah..
..someone telling your Mom you have 7 pts in your hands already?

I could just imagine feel how excited my mother must have felt being told her son will be successful. But no one has said such things about me.And that sucks. Being inferior to your younger brother-who is unfortunately bumptious at times.

I want this bad.
I have a list of people to prove that I can make it.
That I'm not all words and no actions.

ramadhan is here

2007-09-12T14:19:00.000-07:00

Berpuasa is like using a computer.
Always refresh niat.
Download sabar.
Upgrade iman.
Upload usaha.
Delete dosa.
Update doa.
Top-up ilmu to redeem as much pahala as possible.
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My sister sent me this and I found it real cute.
Its sad that this Ramadhan I'm basically just gonna cram for Os.I can't pray terawih at the mosque as much as I did last year.What's more my Mom doesn't want to get a new set of raya clothes for the family,must reuse the one we wore for Kak Girl's wedding.I don't mind actually coz I'm only going for my rounds on the first day.Somehow I feel this year's raya is just gonna be different from the ones I've had.

Today we had Chem & SS papers.Somehow I was quite relaxed for SS but alot more gabrah for Chem.Found out my Mom read me a prayer at 7.40am.My mom is the best.

Oh,Happy Fasting=).

roarandom

2007-09-11T22:28:00.000-07:00

I love English.
I really do.
I finally realised that the reason I get so pissed off at Mr P whenever he fails me or comments on my work is because of my love for English.God, I really ~~want~~ need an A1.

My hosting gig was fun(although it lasted a mere 20 mins!) because a Caucasian-Muslim came up to me after that and said I did great.=)I hated all the waiting,though.It was unbearable!

Prelims are this week and I still don't know why I'm not on full force.I do study but I get distracted easily.Heh. Freaks me out to see my peers all wrapped up in books and notes.

Practical Exam today was oh-kay.Though I felt like breaking the test tubes.I was terribly in need of space and all those Brinjal seeds were strewn everywhere!Aiya,prac sucks.Lol.

I hope my bestfriend cheers up.Sucks to see her so gloomy.Coz she's my lil sunshine.

I'm going to FC tmr and eat!Thursday marks the first day of Puasa!

OK BYE.

berita harian!

2007-09-10T16:25:00.000-07:00

Me and my class,we're on Berita Harian(again)!

WOOHOO.

Listening to Teman Istimewa on Tiq's blog is so funny!Its the starting that's got me laughing. But I like!

distracted

2007-09-09T22:01:00.000-07:00

I don't know why I am so distracted this weekend.That's not good at all.Not this time.

But one was a pretty good distraction.You've got me hooked.

2007-09-07T21:28:00.000-07:00

I see people with different eyes now.
There is definitely more than meets the eye.

I so badly wanna see Fiknatics tmr but I've got this hosting gig with Shahrul so boos to me.I hope they don't think I'm arrogant or something.

For the first time,I'm not so glad its Friday.
September holidays came,and went.

Friends 4ever

2007-09-02T17:46:00.000-07:00

Dad just bought a 160GB Portable Hard Drive.For the past 3 hours,I have been going through my personal stuff and sorting them out.I cried.I laughed.I realised.

We've grown so much as bestfriends.

Some pictures go wayyyy back when I was 11kg heavier.HAHA!

We laughed.We fought.We cried.We smiled.Together.
I hope we won't lose contact once we go our separate ways.
These are friends I can't bear to lose.

PS:I know I've used this song before.But I feel I have to use it again.I have to constantly remind myself that Os are in a month's time. I have to treasure my time in class with my beloved 4e1.I just love the environment there.I know this sounds weird but I feel at home when I'm in class.There are just so many wonderful people who somehow or another,unconsciously taught me different things in life.And I thank you for that.

for the teachers

2007-08-31T18:15:00.000-07:00

Happy Teachers' Day=).

BFF=)

This girl drives me nuts each & every day.

I don't know what I'd do without her.Can 2007 slow down?

Torch Awards/Teachers' Day concert was great!

Junyuan Hunk & Babe.

Looking @ this pic reminds me of Mrs D.I miss her sooo much.

I really love Ms Lin.Even though she can be a bit fussy sometimes,she's really understanding. And the support she's giving me,I can never thank her enough.Biology(theory only!) is so interesting because of her.Really.

Great,that adds another one more person on the list of people I might disappoint if my results suck.

In a nutshell,I truly hope 4E1(& Ms Lin) love the class t-shirts(boys wore black,girls wore orange).Even though it took a huge toll on me and left me a huge emotional baggage,it was worth it to see everyone so happy wearing it.Thanks Abg Adib for designing it for free.Thanks to my dear friends for lifting me up when I was down.

A teacher's job,in my opinion,is one of the most wonderful jobs.To inspire a student and make life-changing experiences is really honorable.

Can't wait to go back to JY next year for Teachers' Day!

bleargh

2007-08-30T21:25:00.000-07:00

On the bus home today,I kept thanking God for still keeping me sane.
I am only sixteen and I don't know why my life is just so... blearghhh.
Full of disappointment.

But I know tomorrow is gonna be a blast.

i'm tired.

2007-08-26T15:58:00.000-07:00

I am physically and emotional drained.I don't know how many times this post has been editted.

2007-08-25T10:16:00.000-07:00

It was my sister's birthday yesterday.She turned ~~twenteen~~ twenty.
The big 2-0 Kakak!
=)

I got her that purple baby doll top!

Her wedding card.HAHA!So belated.

FOOD glorious FOOD.

My brother can't open his eyes for a pic for nobody.Even when he forced himself.

My sister and her boyfriend.

Royal's truffle cake.My favourite!

Very deprived husbands and boy.Haha!

Baby pictures!

There were so many surprises last night.My mom started taking out our baby pictures and passing them around.And Mad Jack's staff sang a bday song for my sister.Super sweet!Glad my sis loved everything.Turning twenty,its like one fifth of a century.
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I just realised something. And I don't like it.Hormones.Damn.

My photobucket has 1000 pics already!Had to delete old photos (esp during Taufik craze). I saw last year's photos of me and the people around me and I realised something(again).I was so happy and contented.I was smiling like I truly mean it.

Now all I can talk about is my freaking Os and studying and shit and I feel like crap.

I want my old life back.
The one with the much less worrying.

Now that I'm feeling in the dumps,the aunty I'm ordering my class tshirts with is not helping either.She's getting on my nerves by not picking up my calls and telling me fucked up things like I haven't read my email.

Don't say I did not try.

made it.

2007-08-21T14:41:00.000-07:00

You Have Low Self Esteem 16% of the Time

Which can be translated to mean, you have high self-esteem and a healthy sense of self worth.
You believe in yourself, and you know how to be the real you. You love yourself, imperfections and all.

How is Your Self Esteem?

Booyah.
Fish,now I miss Taki.

fireworks!

2007-08-19T19:35:00.000-07:00

Fireworks @ Marina Bay & late night shopping @ Mustafa Centre.
=)))

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Okay so everyone has their own opinions.Family,friends,teachers,students,whatever.
But how far should you go to prove your point?

When your family member/friend/teacher and you result in a heaty argument ?
When you feel satisfied leaving the other person feeling like crap?

Listen to what others have to say and realise where they're coming from.That's what I think.

Because many a times we say things we don't mean.

And when we finally realised,we're too late.

Have a good week=).

help!

2007-08-17T23:15:00.000-07:00

This class T-shirt thing is the last thing i'll ever do for an ever-complacent class which lack the initiative to do ~~something~~ anything .Well,almost 60% of the class would rather just sit back and carry on with their own stuff(like chess and gossip). Its so hard to get their co-operation.Its a wonder our English teacher stormed out of class this morning.When Shahrul wanted to thank him,he said "Don't say thank you."

To be honest,I nearly blew up when Anati said I should do the necklace for Teachers' Day. But I knew she was kidding so I was cool.

I need a laptop.Anybody.
I need to get the Malay Proj over and done with.

wake UP man!

2007-08-13T22:24:00.000-07:00

I'm not the kind who gives up easily.

I thank God for making me think of possible questions that could be asked for the conversation for my O level English Oral today.

One of the questions I thought about came out and I talked like nobody's business.

I hope the examiners are impressed=)))).

Ok,so I did not get the grade that I wanted for my O level Malay and I ~~feel~~ felt like crap.But thanks to my form teacher,she actually said stuff that made me feel so much better.

So,I'm gonna retake and get that freaking A.
(P.S:Trust me,it was the perfect wake up call.I have to work harder.Oh twits.)
(P.P.S:I'm in Berita Harian (Ekstra) today!Go find me in red shirt!I'm @ the corner!)

NDP2007

2007-08-11T20:02:00.000-07:00

Okay! National Day post coming right up!
There's like 47 gorgeous photos so brace yourself!(I hope this cheers you up Anati=])

My last National Day Celebration @ School(08.08.07)

Super nice float with marshmallows and choc syrup!S$1 only.

My new 'mouse'.

My first National Day Celebration @ Marina Square!(09.08.07)

I"M DONE=).

And I think my photos are gorgeous!Haha!

So yeah,I had a fun-packed yet tiring and sometimes disappointing National Day Holiday.But its OK!It was a wonderful experience!HAHA!(though I vow to only future NDPs at the stadium rather than sitting by the bay with domestic workers.Watch at home still best!)

Ok I have to go and finish up my Maths.

Happy Belated 42nd Birthday,Singapore!
I wanna make you proud some day=).

heat is on

2007-08-10T12:35:00.000-07:00

I have so many gorgeous pictures to share from my 2 days of celebrating National Day @ school and @ Marina Square yesterday.

But I am too tired.

-I have truckloads of homework to finish.
-I have a Malay Project to settle with my group mates(which can't be done today because one of them is grounded,the other is busy with other unimportant commitment).
-I have to catch up on my study schedule(which I am 2 days behind).
-I have to get the final draft of my class's T-shirt design from Abg Adib,then search for a shop and work my way into getting the 35 shirts done(I don't want my class to go "Talk Big Only" again.Seriously,I'm sick of it).

So what if we have a freaking 5 days holiday?Its certainly not gonna be any fun for me.

And I'm so stressed out my hair is falling apart and my face is getting bad.

O levels are like 70+ days away and I'm at the point if I don't study everyday,I can die.

Three.More.Months.And.It.Will.Be.Over.

What I just can't understand is that here I am feeling the pressure(like all other O-level takers this year),but still there are people who even take school lightly.

WakeUP.

admit it.

2007-08-08T18:36:00.000-07:00

I suddenly remembered this song yesterday while preparing my stuff to study.

Brent used this song in the Visualisation. This song too has many meanings.
I cried even harder when I heard about the 'father' and 'passed away'.
I am very emotional at times(not sensitive),especially when people talk about my parents.
Because Adam Khoo had successfully reminded me about my parents' sacrifices,and boy,is that driving me to give my all.

I hope you guys enjoy it as much as I ~~did~~ do.

The Living Years- Mike and the Mechanics

Every generation
Blames the one before
And all of their frustrations
Come beating on your door

I know that I'm a prisoner
To all my Father held so dear
I know that I'm a hostage
To all his hopes and fears
I wish I could have told him in the living years

Crumpled bits of paper
Filled with imperfect thought
Stilted conversations
I'm afraid that's all we've got

You say you just don't see it
He says its perfect sense
You just can't get agreement
In this present tense
We all talk a different language
Talking in defence

Say it loud, say it clear
You can listen as well as you hear
Its too late when we die
To admit we don't see eye to eye

So we open up a quarrel
Between the present and the past
We only sacrifice the future
Its the bitterness that lasts

So don't yield to the fortunes
You sometimes see as fate
It may have a new perspective
On a different day
And if you don't give up,and don't give in
You may just be O.K.

Say it loud, say it clear
You can listen as well as you hear
Its too late when we die
To admit we don't see eye to eye

I wasn't there that morning
When my father passed away
I didn't get to tell him
All the things I had to say

I think I caught his spirit
Later that same year
I'm sure I heard his echo
In my baby's new born tears
I just wish I could have told him in the living years

Say it loud, say it clear
You can listen as well as you hear
Its too late when we die
To admit we don't see eye to eye
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Its true,right? There are many a times when someone unexpectedly says something nice to me and I was so overwhelmed I forgot to respond and then the conversation ends abruptly-just like that.And I leave with the heavy burden of regret.Because I knew that time would never come again.(Anyway,I didn't fight with my Dad nor is he dying,its just that the lyrics were like that.haha!)
Okay that's that.

Today's National Day celebration at school was good.Had lotsa fun taking pictures!I will update them soon=)

Till then, life isn't a bed of roses. But I've learnt to grow my own petals so that my future will be a bed of roses.

empower u video

2007-08-02T22:19:00.000-07:00

I went to Youtube,found this,watched it till the end and cried.
If life were a comic strip,I would have drowned Tampines with my tears.

I present to you,a clip which sums up the Best Weekend of my life.Perhaps after watching this till the end,you would know why I keep talking about it in almost every post.
But this is not even half of the fun we had.
Thank you Brent for putting it up.

Presenting,
Empower U July,
The 'Best Group Ever'-as stated by Taki and Brent.

Presenting,
My Group.

Syira,I bet you would cry more watching this than listening to the song on my blog.Hehe.

If you watched faithfully till the end,you could see snippets of me=).
In the FROGS group picture,particularly.

Kak Girl & Kakok,now you know why?

Now I can sleep,no need to watch Prison Break:P.

love ya too!

2007-08-02T21:22:00.000-07:00

I really feel like hugging my parents so tight they'd have to untangle my arms for me to let go.

Thank you Mummy and Abah.

Because now I know the power of "If you keep judging people,you won't have time to love them."

Everything is making sense.Finally.

we can do this

2007-08-01T22:09:00.000-07:00

Today was fantastic.
Simply.

Amin from ADLTG(yes Mallienah,our booster session & he came!) dropped by today and boy oh boy was I glad to see him.He did not change,not one bit. I think he was frozen and kept in a refrigerator till today,haha!It was nice seeing a person you miss and talk about alot.It was so sad when we parted for the second and final time.

But there was one particular thing he said,that caught my attention.

"Many patients fall in love with their psychiatrists or therapists because they made them feel good and happy."

That is so true.
=)

Now its me,my friends and Olevels.

woah!

2007-07-30T23:03:00.000-07:00

Oh my God,my friend from Mindchamps has been chatting with me and its bringing me close to tears reminiscing about the good old days.
How lucky am I to know another kind and warm-hearted Sri?
Now I've got 2!

Anyway,Syaza's blog is so saddening.
But we must learn lah babe.

Every good thing must/will/surely come to an end.

Reading Iffa's blog however reminded me about the big Os.=)

Time for bed.
PLUS,I've been having really weird dreams.Like motivational dreams!HAHA!
Am I still hearing Brent's voice in my head?
I dreamnt last night that my parents dumped me and my brother to live on the streets so that we would appreciate what we have.

THAT WAS FREAKING SCARY OK.

But I woke up feeling a million times better=).

swing swing

2007-07-29T11:20:00.000-07:00

I was so care-free and happy when I did this.

Been a long time.

moving on.

2007-07-28T21:11:00.000-07:00

If there's one thing I truly suck at,its probably keeping my loved ones happy.

And I really need a hug right now.
(Sri,your tight and warm hug might just do it.)

Instead of just declaring myself
a filial daughter
a loving sister
a caring friend
I should actually act my part.

And I know now why they drifted away from me.

I'd do anything to be at Hometeam with S4L7108 just shaking my ass off.

Brent said its okay to cry.

No I'm not weak. Trials make you strong.
W h a t d o e s n ' t k i l l m e o n l y m a k e s m e s t r o n g e r .

=)

i miss brent.

2007-07-27T22:55:00.000-07:00

I would do anything to have every weekend to be like last week's.

This week,I've been mainly observing and realising what that has been bothering me.Especially in school.Now that I know,I feel much better.

I still love dancing you know.

I hope all goes well tmr. I seriously cannot take anymore heartaches.

empower U

2007-07-23T17:24:00.000-07:00

The Best Weekend of my life.
I have no words to describe it.
=)

The fun we had;the Assists we loved.

We were strangers
On a crazy adventure
Never dreaming
How our dreams would come true
Now here we stand
Unafraid of the future
At the beginning with you

Amrita;Me;Edna;Ryan.

Brent;my hero.Miss your Singlish!

Taki;Cool Dad!

Aishah;Me;Yanti.Thanks for the love.

Good things have to come to an end.And I'm so sad that its all over.
Everything.

The crying.
The laughters.
The dreaming.
The Visualisation.
The Ha?Whaaa? from Brent.
The million hugs we shared.
The bond we created.
The friends we made.
The dancing.

Yes,we're the best and craziest bunch so far!From the ten and thousands of youths!

"We love dancing;we love dancing"
"We love Brent;we love Brent"

Till now I still do.
=)

The Game of My Life.

nuraziqa

moved!

booyah

close your eyes & blow the candles

up & about

._.

shortlisted

Roadtrip

cherry choc candy

xoxo

is this a joke?

berserah

3 in the morning

decisions,decisions

lemme tell you

BANG

beautiful day

dont worry be happy

always that something extra

bummer.

what's the deal? part 2

what's the deal?

my name is earl a/z/i/q/a

BANG!

close door

which P?

cant feel them limbs

songs about girls

hello?

re-charge

2day

second day

01.01.08

two oh oh seven

TB does not only stand for Taufik Batisah

'tis a season to be jolly, tra la la la

d.i.d.i

long rants

family picnic

bash updated!

wadya know

afterbash

afterbash

big bang

Happy Bday Men!

so sick

stm

back okay

hassle

waterbabies

loveeeuuuuu

mum's e word

go-blog

highyyyyyy

Prom Nite

confident communicator

today sigh today

graduation goodbye

LCCI sucks

looking on the brighter side

smeagle

jalan raya

change

smankies

atuk

d'day

hari raya

marhaban ya ramadhan

last phase

gee,thanks

thankies

siao!

finally on hiatus

i see red.

i feel the bite

ramadhan is here

roarandom

berita harian!

distracted

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