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hits since Dec'06.

♥ Aziqa.

16 going on 17 as of Apr6'08
no words can actually describe the personality i have.
i love to laugh, love to listen to music & i love spending my time with my ♥ ones.
i have hee-yuge dreams, and i'm currently working my way to achieving them.
i love to do random acts of kindness, something about making people's day for no simple reason=).
from me, expect the unexpected.
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[ Saturday, May 27, 2006 ]

8:34 PM

what's wrong with me?

hello.

just as i was celebrating my joy on my much improved results from the mid-years(hey,its though to get my mom praise me ok!),i realised there was something terribly wrong with me.

i was terribly hungry after coming back from school and so my dear sister cooked up fried rice for me with a sunny-side up egg.first bite-the rice was soft.i thought the maid had overcooked it so i just dug in.after a few bites,i realised i cudnt take it anymore.so i stopped.knowing that if i force myself i might end up throwing it all out.

so i lay on the sofa,feeling like there's something tryna escape through my oseophagus.i knew i was going to vomit.but nothing came out.i didnt wanna force myself.so i slept.

woke up,went to my dad's room and put axe oil on my chest and went back to sleep.woke up and ran to the toilet.
i aimed wrongly and threw up in da sink.i was relieved that what was inside which was trying to come out had come out.so i just cleared my puke,and then went outside and everything was okay.

till i drank my first cup of apple with aloevera.i drank it and then threw up,now in da toilet bowl.then my sister was telling me about being aneroxic,that all the good stuff had went out of my body.she also said that i had to eat something i like,i told her i lost my appetite.then she went on saying to my parents that its puberty,girls just wanna be skinny.

but i dont.i like the way i look.although its not toned or nothing.i know my family knows how much i have been dieting since the year started.i just wanted to look healthy and get out of TAF.now i am out-and maintaining a good weight.but i just dunno why today my body does not wanna accept what i'm eating.

now eveyone's worried i might just get hospitalised due to dehydration.i am worried too.even now as i am typing my entry i feel like puking on the keyboard.haish.

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